An Anything-But-Routine 2015

A bright red poinsettia sits on my desk here at Unity. There is a penguin snow globe and an angel ornament there too. I have been entering things "to do" on my 2015 calendar for a few weeks now.

Rebecca and I came in to work today to prepare the Burning Bowl bulletin and supplies. I look forward to having Rev. Rachel Sue Ritz here to facilitate that service on January 4th. I only learned today that the dragonfly on the cover of that bulletin is a symbol for change - we can count on that, can't we?

It's getting cold again now - after we've been lucky to have a few days of 40s and even 50s for high temperatures. It's time for me to turn off the computer and get home. I've already mentioned that the next week will be my time of reflecting back over 2014 and setting some intentions for 2015 - one of my favorite things to do at this time of the year.

I didn't want to leave the office, though, before sending you all my best wishes for an anything-but-routine 2015!

~ JEAN

The Log in my Eye

My husband told me he was working on clutter in our kitchen while I was in Illinois a couple weeks ago. I was highly enthusiastic and supportive when he told me that. Unspoken to him, I hoped that meant he would get rid of stuff we don't use any more.

When I returned he had, in fact, purchased a large table with shelving to store all the things he termed clutter. Nothing was gotten rid of, it was just rearranged to look better.

I groused to myself  ... and then had a big realization.

Do you know this Bible verse? Why do you see the splinter that's in your brother or sister's eye, but don't notice the log in your own eye? Matthew 7:3

I realized that I have a lot of clutter in several of "my" spaces in our house and I had best get working on the log in my own eye.

~ JEAN

Manna from Heaven

Give us this day our Daily Bread
From the Lord's Prayer

Manna is defined as miraculous food, a sudden happening that brings good fortune, a Godsend, a bonanza, a windfall.

Last Sunday Dr. Bob Rosenthal talked about manna during his workshop called "The Exodus Path of Miracles." The workshop was based on his book From Plagues to Miracles, The Transformational Journey of Exodus, From the Slavery of Ego to the Promised Land of Spirit.

What I heard is that the manna that appeared every morning for the Hebrew people wandering in the wilderness was exactly as much food as they needed for the day - their Daily Bread. I internalized that as a metaphor telling me that when I wake up every morning I will have whatever I need for that day. That feels pretty darn good.

I took some other notes during the workshop: Wherever we go, God is with us; We get what we need for our journey; And more on the daily manna story: stay present, don't look too far ahead and leap to conclusions about how things should go - these conclusions are probably ego-driven. Just ask for peace today. Intentions precede miracles and miracles are short cuts on our spiritual path.

I had a powerful insight the next day: I remembered a statement I made at a previous workshop: I wanted to publish a book that received a positive review in the New York Times and was an Oprah Book Club selection. My insight was that my true vision is to honor my father by publishing his letters home while he was serving in World War II. All the rest is ego.

I accept the manna each day that helps me to accomplish my purpose. The rest I leave to Spirit.

~ JEAN

Vulnerability

I’ve been thinking a lot about vulnerability lately.  Recently, in a job training I attended, we watched a TED Talk by Dr. Brené Brown, a research professor at the University of Houston, on the subject of vulnerability.  At the time, this subject was nowhere near the forefront of my mind, so I found myself caught off-guard by the impact that the content of Dr. Brown’s message was having on me as I watched the video.

Vulnerability is possibly the very LAST thing I am interested in exploring.   There is not a bone in my body that wakes up in the morning and says, “Oh, what a great day to be vulnerable!”  On the contrary, I’m sure I expend inordinate amounts of time and energy, both consciously and unconsciously, on a daily basis finding ways NOT to be vulnerable in my interactions with others and with the world as a whole.  I’m very good at putting up walls to protect myself, and  until now, I’ve never really been interested in laying aside my armor.

The thing about Dr. Brown’s talk that struck the deepest chord with me was her assertion that vulnerability is essential to connection, which, of course, is why we’re here.  Connection is what gives purpose to our lives.  Without connection, life has no meaning.  And in order to truly connect with one another, we have to be willing to be vulnerable.

Great.

Dr. Brown has done some studies on the subject of vulnerability and finds that she can easily divide human beings into two groups – those who have a strong sense of love and belonging, and those who struggle for a sense of love and belonging.   And she believes that the difference between these two groups boils down to their sense of worthiness.   People in the struggling group tend to fear that they are not worthy of connection.  People in the group with a strong sense of love and belonging – she calls them the “whole-hearted” – embody the following traits:

• Courage to be imperfect
• Compassion to be kind to themselves and others
• Connection as a result of authenticity
• Willingness to let go of who they think they should be to be who they are
• Willingness to embrace vulnerability
• A belief that what makes me vulnerable makes me beautiful
• An understanding that vulnerability is essential to connection

Dr. Brown asserts that vulnerability is the birthplace of joy, of creativity, of belonging, and of love.

Great.

I recognize, now that I’ve listened to this talk, that in my efforts to numb my sense of vulnerability, I also effectively numb my experience of joy, of gratitude, and of happiness because, as Dr. Brown says, we can’t selectively numb emotion.  If we numb the bad, we also numb the good. 

I’m not entirely sure what I plan to do with this new information.  For now, I’m just sitting with it and allowing myself to become aware of my sense of vulnerability and my normal patterns of behavior to avoid feeling vulnerable.   If you’re interested in listening to Dr. Brown’s TED Talk and diving in to the subject of vulnerability yourself, you can find the talk on her website: http://brenebrown.com. 

~REBECCA

Endings and Beginnings

"When we stand at the end of one life experience ... we remember that every ending also has a beginning. We may be tempted to keep looking back, but once we turn our eyes to the path ahead, we find new opportunities awaiting us." From "Endings," the Daily Word for October 31st.

My 12th year of marriage ended and my 13th year of marriage began on October 12. I drew an "angel card" for the year ahead and received: Beauty.

My 63rd year on earth ended and my 64th year began on earth began on November 6. I drew an "angel card" for the year ahead and received: Birth.

Every year in late December and early January I spend time journaling about the year that is ending and set some resolutions and intentions for the year that is beginning. I love spending that time reflecting and visioning. Often I'm sitting in my big overstuffed easy chair with a fire burning brightly in our wood-burning stove. That's when I will draw an angel card for the year 2015 and I hope to participate in the 2015 White Stone meditation on Sunday, January 11, introduced to us (well, me at least) by Rev T.

I'm so grateful for all the ways I receive guidance - I have faith that they are all the voice of God coming to me in various forms.

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This Daily Word speaks to me so positively because it doesn't just focus on the past, the endings of my life, it points me ahead to the beginnings, to the anticipation of my "unfolding journey." I look forward to the promise of how Beauty and Birth play out in the months ahead. I am interested to find out what my third angel card and the White Stone meditation message will be.

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Along with our sunflowers, I planted a bunch of nasturtium seeds last spring. The flowers were so beautiful and full for several months in the summer and fall (above left); then, after a couple of below freezing nights, their run ended (right). Just like the 187 bulbs my husband and I planted this fall that promise daffodils in the spring, we can look forward to planting new flowers at the beginning of next summer.

Wishing you interesting endings and promising beginnings.

~ JEAN