Not Letting Doubt Stop Me

The most profound experience for me during Lent this year was the slip of paper I drew from Rev. Carmela's basket in mid-February. My slip of paper said:

"Doubt: Believe God has a plan for you that is beyond anything you could imagine. The future is brighter than you could ever realize."

I've been studying about Fear and this reminder about Doubt was perfect both in content and in timing for me. I keep a copy by my desk at work and in front of my keyboard in my office at home. Every time I read it, I say to myself; "Oh yea! Don't let doubt get in the way of you doing this or that!"

Here's one example: I had an opportunity to go visit my sister who was babysitting her grandson who had a liver transplant at age 6 months. Now he's a year and 4 months old, in the 30th percentile of weight and he has about 10 teeth. The only time I had seen him in person he was in a hospital bed and couldn't be picked up. The one "hurdle" for me was to figure out how to take public transportation "all the way" to Brooklyn and back home.

I said to myself (after looking at my reminder on Doubt): "I can do this." I had handwritten directions with the right subways to take. On Wednesday,  April 19, my husband took me to the bus in Clinton. An hour and a half later I was walking up the steps to Stanley's apartment. My sister Nancy and I had about three hours together with Stanley before I retraced my steps and another hour and a half my husband was picking me up at the bus stop. Everything went smoothly and even faster than I expected.

I think about doubt stopping me from having that day and I am so grateful I didn't let it.

At the end of Lent, on Easter Sunday, I chose this affirmation:

"My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth." Psalm 121:2

As I studied with Rebecca's class on "Even Mystics Have Bills to Pay" by Jim Rosemergy, I resolved and am willing to know in my highest soul-self that God is my Source and Consciousness of God is my Supply. So my affirmation is just a reminder of that resolve.

I began working the Life-changing Magic of Tidying Up hints again this week. My office continues to need my attention. At the same time, I am dealing with a couple minor health issues with as much calmness as I can muster. I just continue to not let doubt stop me and to know that God is my Source and my consciousness of God is my supply.

I'm so grateful ...

~ JEAN