Thursday, February 12, 2015

Letting Go ...

I get the feeling that my life is changing. I don't know how or what that change will look like but here's how I know: I'm feeling a strong urge to let go.

I let go of driving for Meals on Wheels - February 6 was my last day.  It feels right to let that go.

I am in the process of letting go of some of my responsibilities for the Friends of the Hunterdon County Library: I handed over the PR to a couple other people over the last few years. I have been creating the "Friend to Friend" newsletter (published 3 times per year) for over a decade. This Winter's Newsletter will be my final issue. In some cases I am finding people to take over for me and in other cases I am informing the officers and just letting go. Others will pick up some of the activities and the organization will let go of some of the activities. It feels right to let these go too.

Asked what my logic would say, I would have said that when I find something new, I will then give up some of my volunteer activities. But ... that's not what's happening. I'm clearly being led to let go now.

Coincidentally - and I know there are no coincidences - the theme of this Unity's Lenten Booklet for 2015 is "Learning to Let Go." It states: "Lent is a time for progressive unfoldment. As we heed the guidance of the still, small voice within us, the way is made clear. As we commit to following the steps we have outlined for ourselves, we are transformed. We are renewed, restored, rejuvenated - reborn!"

In one way I feel unsettled. My worry brain: I will have free time and nothing to fill it with. I'm taking things off my plate but I'm not adding anything. My right mind: This feels good and right. Making these changes is opening up space and time in my life to do whatever is next for me to do. And that is really exciting.

~ JEAN

Monday, February 9, 2015

The Magic of Theater


The past two weekends, I’ve had the privilege of working backstage at several performances of “Beauty and the Beast” by ShowKids Invitational Theater, a children’s community theater organization which my oldest son Avery has been involved in since he was in fourth grade.  S.K.I.T., as the organization is affectionately called, has been quite a blessing for my family, as it has been the perfect creative outlet for my all-over-the-place child, who seems like he was born to be on the stage.

Avery as Cogsworth the Clock.  Photo by Dave Dabour Photography.


People often refer to the “magic” of live theater – the ability of theater, through a combination of sets and stage, and actors and actresses, and a captivating story, to transport an audience through time and space and evoke their full range of emotions, all in a matter of hours.  Directors rely on a similar kind of “magic” to pull together the various component parts of the performance – the lights, the sounds, the sets, the scenery, the actors, the actresses, the script, etc. – into one coherent show.

For two years, I have worked as a backstage “runner” during performances.  My job is to follow the script and help gather the actors and actresses from the dressing rooms to the wings so that they are on stage before the curtain opens for each scene.  For the duration of the show, I mostly stand on the ramp that leads up to the right wing (ironically).  This job has given me a behind-the-scenes look at all of the hard work that goes into creating this “magical” experience for the audience.  

After several months of rehearsals on Friday evenings and Saturday and Sunday afternoons, actors and parent volunteers spend 20+ hours during the week before the show opens at “tech week” rehearsals, where the stage, sound, lighting, hair and makeup crews have their first opportunity to practice setting and striking the scenery, raising and lowering the backdrops, testing the microphones, planning the lighting, and transforming the actors and actresses into their respective characters.  On performance days, these same groups arrive two and a half hours before each show to get ready.  

During performances, there is a frenzy of activity happening backstage – costume changes, scene changes, hair fixes, last minute rehearsing – which the audience never sees.  The stage manager and stage and lighting crews are all connected backstage with little microphones that allow them to communicate moment-to-moment and resolve technical glitches in real time.  In the dressing rooms, TV monitors allow the actors and actresses and their volunteer assistants to see exactly what is happening on the stage at any given moment.  

This backstage experience reminds me a lot of what I’ve been learning this year in my experiment with the Law of Mind Action.  Although there is some level of “magic” that happens when we endeavor to create something beautiful in our lives, an essential key to success is action.  Without hard work, S.K.I.T. shows would not be as successful as they are, and this little community theater organization would not have the same capacity for transforming children’s lives.  For many years, I’ve used the notion of having faith and a prosperity consciousness to abdicate responsibility for taking action and putting in the time and effort required to achieve my goals.  I'm beginning to realize that I need to have faith in God AND also do my part.  Watching these children see all their hard work pay off has been quite an inspiration to me.  I'm looking forward to being a part of the "magic" at their spring show.

~REBECCA

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Doing or Being Faith

Yesterday I realized that I had dropped the ball on a project for this year's Friends of the Hunterdon County Library Annual Book Sale coming up in May. Why? Because this year's sale has lots of challenges - in fact it won't be like any year before - no familiar routines, no models to fall back on, no blueprint to help guide the committee.

I started to worry and pace the floor of my bedroom. "This is going to be a disaster." "We won't get everything done in time for the sale." Panic - that was what I was feeling.

Then I stopped pacing. "Wait a minute!" I reminded myself: "This is so unproductive. I know that the book sale will go fine, one way or another. I know that all will be well."

One reason I was able to remind myself of these more affirming messages is because of  a statement by Sharon Salzberg in her book entitled Faith. (Rebecca, my 12 Powers study partner, found this book at the Hunterdon County Library.) Salzberg writes that faith is a verb. Faith is something we do, not something that we have. At first I didn't get the difference. If I have faith then all will go well at the book sale. Then I realized that as I was affirming that all would be well at the book sale, I was doing or being faith. And it felt great.

Two recent Daily Words also gave me good advice this week. The Daily Word for Tuesday was Comfort. The meditation begins: "In good times and difficult times, I open myself to the comforting love of Spirit. I relax into this Presence and let it soothe my emotions and bring peace to my mind."

When I was being faith I felt calm and was able to put aside my concerns, sit down in front of our wood-burning stove as the fire was blazing away and pick up a book to read. Again I don't know if I can convey to you just how GREAT that felt.

Wednesday's Daily Word - Present Moment - reinforced my feelings. The meditation begins: "I may catch myself regretting the past or worrying about the future. Yet I know such preoccupation is not helpful to me. In truth, the present moment is all there is, so I choose to live fully in the now."

Even though it's February now, I will finish the book on Faith, January's power (or ability) before I move on to February's power - Strength. Being a study partner with Rebecca is a pleasure.

~ JEAN

Monday, February 2, 2015

Twelve Powers - Faith

Today is day 339 of my 365-day experiment with practicing the Law of Mind Action, and I’ve begun a new study that intertwines nicely with my current “research.”  I am working with the Twelve Powers as described by Charles Fillmore in his book The Twelve Powers of Man.   Fillmore claimed that each individual possesses twelve spiritual abilities, in varying degrees of development, which Jesus expressed fully and which each of us can learn to express in our own daily lives.

I’m working with Fillmore’s book and with a second book which is required reading for Unity Institute’s S.E.E. (Spiritual Education and Enrichment) course on the Twelve Powers.  Power Up!  by Unity ministers Rev. Dr. Paul Hasselbeck and Rev. Dr. Cher Holton simplifies and modernizes the sometimes difficult-to-read Fillmore text.   The Unity Worldwide Ministries website also offers some material on the Twelve Powers at http://www.unity.org/resources/twelve-powers/twelve-powers. Plus, Jean has decided to join me in this study! So I’m feeling blessed with an abundance of materials and rich conversations from which to draw insights and knowledge.

The Twelve Powers correspond nicely with the months of the year - perfect for my Type-A brain, which prefers to study things in a logical, methodical, back-in-school kind of way.  The power for January was Faith, and I spent the month of January immersed in readings on this topic.  In addition to the Unity materials I mentioned above, I also checked the library for books on the subject of Faith, and I found one I loved called Faith: Trusting Your Own Deepest Experience by Sharon Salzberg, a Buddhist meditation teacher.

At the beginning of January, I had noticed I was feeling resistant to the idea of exploring the subject of Faith.  There was something about Faith that seemed too vague and fuzzy for me to get my perfectionist mind wrapped around.  Plus, some of the things I’ve discovered in my experiment with the Law of Mind Action seemed contradictory to the definition of Faith as I understood it at first.  So I wasn’t sure I had any Faith in the idea of studying Faith!  But over the course of the month, as I continued to work with the readings, I started to gain some clarity around Faith and to see how I can use my own spiritual ability of Faith to navigate the troubled waters I encounter on my path toward becoming fully who I am.

What I realized this past month is that, contrary to my previous definition, having Faith – to me - doesn’t mean believing that things will work out the way I want them to.  It doesn’t mean if I pray hard enough I’ll get the job I want.  It doesn’t mean I’ll get the diagnosis I want.  It doesn’t mean my children will follow the paths I want them to follow.  It doesn’t mean there will be a “happy ending” to my every story.  To me, having Faith means knowing that no matter what my outer circumstances may be, I am always connected to that wise, loving Center - it’s only a breath away.  And I can meet my circumstances, whatever they are, from my Center with courage and strength and grace and love.   This is a definition of Faith that fills my heart.  

The color for Faith is blue.  I’ve been wearing a bracelet with a blue teardrop charm as a reminder of my Faith throughout the day.  Now that we’re into February, it’s time to begin the study of Strength, but I plan to keep wearing my bracelet to help me stay connected to my Faith as I move through the rest of the Twelve Powers.

For more information about Unity Institute's S.E.E. program, visit http://www.unityinstitute.org/see. 

~REBECCA

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Finding the Good

Two days ago (Tuesday) I fell into my winter "growl." I didn't like anyone (including myself) or anything. My internal judge was alive and well. "Move over so I can pass! Get a job! Shovel your sidewalks!"


I didn't escape. "You only did half the job!! You're not getting anything done!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrr."

I'm co-facilitating a book discussion of The Four Agreements with Dan Cavanaugh this month. We got snowed out for our third class on that Tuesday but I must have needed that class. As my internal rants and raves continued, several of the agreements kicked into my brain, thank the Lord.

I was taking things personally; I was making assumptions; and I certainly wasn't doing my best. That night I started to journal about what I was feeling and thinking. I didn't come up with a solution except to turn it all over to God. I also accepted what I was feeling which, for me, is the first step toward my return to being at peace.

Then I read today's Daily Word: Change. The affirmation is "I find the good in each circumstance."

These sentences from the meditation touched me: "I may not notice the positive side of life circumstances as they unfold. I am willing to learn from each experience. Rather than resist change, I look for and find the good in each circumstance. I envision myself someday looking back at this moment and seeing how my willingness and nonresistance helped me in ways I could not imagine. I trust Spirit is bringing me exactly what I need to build my life."

I am willing to find the good. I wish the same for each of you.

~ JEAN


Thursday, January 22, 2015

God Within

The Daily Word for yesterday was "Pray for Others." When I see this, I'm so grateful I have Unity's teaching (and Joel Goldsmith and others too) on prayer - that I need only see each person as a beloved child of God, whole and complete and healthy,

A dear friend's five year old grandson is suffering with little strokes. He has had two surgeries in the last few months. In my worry brain I wonder if there is such a thing as a little stroke; in my right mind, I know that all is well with this little old boy.

Another dear friend's son (in his 40s) has the skills and expertise to make a contribution in Africa in the work to contain, slow and eventually stop the spread of the Ebola virus. He chose to travel to Sierra Leone a couple days after Thanksgiving and is still there, missing Christmas with his wife and three young sons. In my worry mind I know that no matter how careful some aide workers have been, they still have contracted the virus. In my right mind, I see this young man "in the green." He made his choice with a knowing brain and I support him totally with my prayers for his and everyone's well being, whether they are patients, family members or a medical person.

Several people I love have various health or other issues going on in their lives. Here's what the Daily Word meditation says:
When praying for others, I center myself in the awareness of God within me. I remember that God is also within those for whom I pray. I affirm my faith in the power of prayer and give thanks for the activity of Spirit in all situations."
~ JEAN

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Thursday, January 15, 2015

Rejoice and be glad in it

My mom told me recently that she had a "nothing" day. I replied, "I didn't have much going on today either."

Before that both of us had described the various things we'd done that day. For her it included going out for coffee with a friend.

Several weeks ago I wished everyone an "anything-but-routine" 2015. I've thought a lot about that expression. For me, and maybe for you too, a routine day is just what I want some days.

Then I remembered one of my favorite Bible verses from Psalms - shown here.

My mom and I both laughed together when we remembered my dad not understanding anyone who said they were bored because he never was.

So here's my take away: I will refrain from judging a day as something or nothing by what I accomplished, who I saw or where I went that day. Instead I will enjoy every day as it comes, staying present and rejoicing and being glad in whatever it brings me.

~ JEAN